Time Flies

Written: 11/15/07, Dallas, TX

Wow, time flies when you are having fun! I can't believe that it has been this long since I have sat down and taken a peek into my heart.

From Natalie's birthday and getting to know her, to an incredibly romantic trip to San Antonio with Brian, to event filled weekends, and planning for the girls birthdays and the Holidays, the fall months have escaped me. It all went by in the blink of an eye. This time of year always does this to me or rather I do it to myself. But it has been fun.

I can't believe how time has flown since the girls were born. Maddie will be FIVE on the 20th and Ally will be THREE in December. It seems that the older the girls get the more fun we have been having with them. There is just so much to experience with each day they grow. They are growing into themselves and it has been incredible to watch. Ally has started to out grow her tantrums although she is still my sensitive girl. And Maddie is such a big girl and the things she says are so grown up. It makes me wonder exactly when my little girls grew up......it so gradual yet so fast. Was it when Maddie started riding her bike with out training wheels? Or when Ally started to spell her name? Or when they started to really play together instead of fighting over the toys? I know I can't pin point the time but it helps me to remember all that has happened in the last year and how thankful I am to have experienced all the good AND the bad.

Written: Thanksgiving Night, Abilene, TX

I started this blog about a week ago and never found the time to finish it....and here I am now on Thanksgiving night, my blood pressure is high and I am feeling defeated, for now. Don't get me wrong, the trip to see my parents and siblings and nieces has been WONDERFUL, but my sweet Ally has been wearing me down. She has had tantrums and crying fits every day and I am tired. I am running out of options and have been waiting for her to out grow them....and I thought she had. It has been hard to think you are making progress and then to end up back where you started. Maybe it is the new environment or maybe she is just having a bad week. Whatever it is, my patience is growing thin and I am not sure what to do. Right now, I need to STOP time and just be still. I know that God doesn't give you what you cannot handle, but I am so curious as to what God has in mind for us....

Dear God,
Help me to be the mother that Ally needs, all the time. Give me the patience and wisdom to help Ally with her tantrums. You have blessed me with these incredible children, who are little parts of me and I thank You with all of my heart. Help me to know what to do next and what road to take. You are almighty and nothing is done without You. Give me peace and turn my eyes to You. Amen.

While I have been writing this, time HAS stopped, I am still and I am better....